serious post.

ok today i was just out and about. and all of a sudden i wanted to write like immediately. and since it is currently illegal to type and drive at the same time in all 50 states, i had to wait until i got home.

i have been realizing some things about myself and who i am lately. as i prepare for my best friend's wedding, i sometimes get jealous that her life is falling into place. and here i am a year away from graduating and still have not found my other half.

i've been in relationships that ended leaving me broken. and i think instead of opening up and letting that broken heart heal, i've held on it. guarding it so no one will see me in the state of complete brokenness. not allowing God to do what he had to do in order to repair the damage. in hurt, i've become this independent woman who is afraid to ask for help. because if i let someone else in, they might see my scars and see everything except beauty.

my independence and my inability to commit is rooted in my hurt.

tonight. i'm. letting. go.

of all the hurt and pain and brokenness and here i stand a brand new woman.

therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation;

the old has gone, the new has come!

2 corinthians 5:17