my brain is mush.

so as crazy anxious i was for the big critical thinking tests. as soon as i got to class and everyone looked about as bad as i did (sporting the crazy hair, no make up, the lovely nursing sweats, droopy eyelids and basically a hot mess) and seeing that i was not the only who hadnt sleep the past week and just knowing that i wasnt alone in this hot mess made me a lot better.

now, i am not saying that i wasnt freaking about the test i was. i was trying to act tough so i didnt cry. and let me tell you, i was laughing at stupid things to keep from crying. i dont know why i wanted to cry but i did. and i think i might have let out a few tears unintentially. i sat down and was talking to some people about all the work i have left to do for thursday and someone said something and i laughed and tears came out. i have never felt so unprepared for a test before.

i am just so glad that i am done and i dont have to think about that test any longer. and i am moving on. actually i am pretty sure my brain is on spring break and my body still has two check offs tomorrow and an essay to write and an exam to study for. all before thursday. i gotta get focused. but i am making a list of things i want to get done during spring break so hopefully i get some stuff done. cleaning my room is on the top of my list actually. i have been trying things everywhere the past week and a half because i dont have time to put it away and it looks like haiti in my bed room right now.

on kinda a completely different note but still related to spring break. i am burning new cds for my car so i have some new music, just in case i snap after i get done on thursday. i got a full tank of gas and i am not sure how far i will be able to go on very little money but i might just do something spontaneous.

i dont know. maybe i will just sleep in and watch movies all day.
i need to study. blahhhhhh..